Wednesday, 30 December 2009

learn to love again :3

A Girl Meets Bossanova 2, the album from my currently favorite singer, olivia ong :3

a chinese singaporean singer, only 24 years old. this album was launched in 2006. i really love her sweet and airily singing voice.
and i really love the bossanova arrangement of all the song. the percussion, the saxophone solo and everything.

oh, and the lyrics of the song is really really suitable and inspiring for a little girl like me that strive to find a new love hahaha. LOL.

better love, that seems a bit near, very sweet and tender :)
and also confusing.
in a way that i am not really good in crushing somebody. and during the past experiences my love story ended up badly.
i don't really know how should i act, how should i talk, how should i smile, how should i dress. is this too much? or does he like it? does he feel annoyed about my presence? am i too talkative? what does he feel toward me? does his kindness mean something? or it's just his usual attitude?

really confusing. but sweet.
let's work on it, slowly but sure.
and i can only pray to God that everything will end up nicely :3



finally, after -hmm- let me count it.. 3 months without a blogspot, finally i can write again in this blog :)

just an quick update for this post.
and my life has completely changed. really really change. hopefully towards betterment.
and i'm having a quite long holiday until late january or maybe early february.
and i have so many plans for this holiday ^^

well i'm quite happy now. with my university, solitary, love, violin, and everything.

let's see the new day ^^

Sunday, 27 September 2009

love love love everyday :)

whew! i’m sure that i emit loads of this kind of pollution :)

♥ so full of love :D ♥

pray for me!

haha. here we go again. welcome to my hectic life :D

next week i will have physics quiz. and maybe tons of homework and i need extra concentration in class to perform well.

and i have just found a competition of online video music contest, named battle of the songs with deadline of 2 october 2009. and you know what? i will follow that :p

ok, crazy.
well at first, mom saw it at and she told me to follow it (of course she did :D)

i read the announcement carefully.
i was very positive to follow. i have the song, i only have to record it, have it edited, and zoom, send it to jakarta.

but then.
they need not only the music but also video clip of the song!!

at first i thought it would be impossible. i was like rrrrr -i cannot make a video clip, and who will make it for me?- and rrrr -making video clip? who would be the model? what would the scenes all about?

but well, God showed me the way :)
mas ammy and mas zaki helped me and giving me some basic clue about how to make a video clip and who can make it for you.
kak angkuy also suggested his friend, isha, the one who made bottlesmoker's videoclip.

and after loads of discussion.

with helped of kak isha i would make a video clip of one of my song.

i would record the music on tuesday.
and i would make the video clip on thursday. gotta skip classes though, but well, it might be my one and only attempt to feel how it's like to ditch the class in ITB first year :p hope that later on i would not be sick so my absent would still be 99.99% LOL

and hopefully, on friday morning. zoom it would be delivered to jakarta. amen.


well, very thrilling.

memang gak rame ikut lomba kalo gak mepet deadline HAHAHA

LOL :)

pray for me please :)

*for those who want to follow my "courage" to follow this competition please just go here for details :)

Saturday, 26 September 2009


aaaww. really sweet >3
really hope that someday someone will make this thing happen by ym/skype or anything :)

Tuesday, 15 September 2009


ah, finally, holiday and I can write again =)
my new life as a university student, well, has made me a bit (A BIT?) occupied. Just look at my blog and facebook’s note, I really didn’t write any update for 1 month.

ok, let me tell you about my first month. My faculty, Sekolah Ilmu Teknologi Hayati is quite nice. I think that my faculty has the coolest acronym compared to other faculties. SITH from star wars. LOL. And also the blue building of SITH (used to be called labtek biru) is really cool. With all of the glass and metal material sometimes I feel like I am in an aerial base. I also love the tiles that form a double helix and also the all glass wall above it that form a giant mirror (I love to see my reflection there and wave LOL) and, well, almost forget to mention about the kebab and ice cream stall-though i haven't tried that, but it has been known to be utterly nice- and also equipped with green house and botanical garden, i think my faculty is kinda cool :)

my new friends are also very nice, diverse, and well, unique. ITB is a real melting pot, you have people from different region, all over Indonesia; varying in culture, habit, and accent. i will never get bored to just sit down in class and just looking at my surroundings. my friends are always very colorful. and well, right now, i've already had some close friends, although i'd rather not considered myself as a super social creature, but i do think that i made a quite good social interaction. and i love my new close friends; helen, irly, hilda, uti, febe; heart you all >3 oh, the guys here in SITH are also very nice. and, ehm, thanks to my small body, friends and also lecturer remember me from that. i know that being small is not always pleasant but sometimes it IS your uniqueness :)

and well, my progress on the academic. i have a good calculus and biology concept teacher. although i wasn't doing good in my first and second quiz of calculus, but i think that i'm doing calculus quite okay and i just have to do more practice. i have a sole chemistry and physics teacher arrgh. but i'm trying to be very objective and study hard at home, because i don't really understand their explanation. my physics teacher is too smart and my chemistry teacher is just a bit not well structured in teaching. the other subjects are going quite well and i think that i should not be worry. the conclusion is that i have to work extra hard, concentrate really hard at class, and practice harder at home. a good GPA is my goal and i have to study well to achieve that :)

and right now, i'm thinking of selecting biology as my major and ecology as my sub major. although microbiology with its molecular biology, genetics, and biotechnology seems to be very promising for a bright future but if everyone does want to enter microbiology then 5 years or 7 years from now on the world of microbiology will have been fully occupied and it will hard to be an excellent person when you have so many people concentrated there.
and why ecology? i think that ecology will always be an actual issues. environment is more damaged by the day and you will have to do something to make it better. someone mastering in this world will always be needed. and i think that this sub major allows us to make more interaction with people and nature. rather than spending a day in front of microscope and observing bacteria :D

ok let's move on to the extracurricular activities. i register to two units. ITB Student Orchestra, and Student English Forum. both ISO and SEF has evolved. ok, they're bigger and well developed now. and it's very good for them to have a loads of activity to welcome their new members and actually eliminate their new members by their so called loyalty to the unit. but unfortunately i just cannot divide my activities outside with my activities inside ITB. i'm trying to cope hard in ISO, well i kinda make it, following the interview, show off, i skipped some meeting and gatherings and i haven't collected iso black book. now they make us to make mini concert, hope that i can participate there. and SEF, i think that my absent to 3 meetings due to many things will not make me a member. maybe it's time for me to be really focus on music.
i think that i also have evolved. i have some regular things to do outside.

klabklassik is important to me, now that i feels a great sense of belonging. rgb concert is coming and i want to be a part of it not only as a player, i want to feel more of organizational aspect in klabklassik and learn to deal with society.
angsa dan serigala is another thing that has been a second family for me. the band has developed right now and i feel more and more comfortable. we have many dreams and upcoming projects. album is maybe the biggest goal right now. making an album requires a great concentration, practice and lot of time together. btw, don't forget to download our new single, bersamaku here and request it on the radio :)

klabklassik string trio oh how i love this trio. although we failed to play together as a team in Hilton bandung but i'm certain that job will still come to us. upcoming weddings, events, our project with kang pidi baiq, our plan to have a regular practice, and even our long term plan to make our own songs and recital (which seems so far away but who knows?) this thing really keep me busy and happy, i would never have a gut to sing in weddings and stuffs if mas syarif didn't push me. and i really want to make this trio established :)

my own violin study improving my violin playing is very important. i have to learn to be unique. my violin teacher think that i have enough basic of classical and now it's the time to develop my musicality and broaden my musical horizon. right now i'm learning improvisation technique (with my violin teacher's secret technique) beside improvisation technique i also want to learn more musical genre. i also want to learn about the sounding of the violin, since now i know very few about amplification and effects. i want to be able to make my violin TALK and INTERACT with people, not only making good sound and songs. i want my violin to be alive, i don't want to put a mindset that violin is only a musical instrument. my violin has to be a tool of communication and interaction that can cross different languages and cultures. violin has to be my way to express my thoughts.

and my own ambition i'm gonna make my name established someday. i have to practice violin and singing and composition real hard. i have to be productive in making songs, although it's really really hard. someday, i want to have an album of myself, playing my own songs with my family and friends involved. maybe for the mean time, my hope is to make a guitar song for mas syarif's recital and a recital of the trio in the following year.

along with all of the stuffs i've mentioned above, i think that right now it's the time to be focus. to be focus on music and university, getting good GPA and reaching my dream to be a violinist :)
oh, so many ambition and things to do.
gotta concentrate and work real hard! :)
pray for me :D

and hope i'll post more good updates in the next update post! :)


Friday, 14 August 2009

lungsuran daur!

oh, hello all! :)
have skipped PROKM (general orientation for the new student of ITB) for 2 days, i didn't feel too healthy and i didn't wanna risk my unhealthy leg and my own health. i really want to attend my first lecture at tuesday with super healthy body and mind :)

anyway, i'm gonna tell you about a fantastic contemporary music group that i saw on tuesday, at SSDK ITB 2009 (strategi sukses di kampus)
the name of the group is LUNGSURAN DAUR.

in the hands of a 58 years old named pak dodong and other musician, they create a music that made the whole auditorium gasped and cheered for encore. the group consists of Dodong Kodir, Yudi Setiadi (his younger brother), Rusli Gustaman, Rudi Rodek, Asep Tato, Ricky Biola, and Dedeng Buleng.

and their most attractive point were their instruments. pak dodong made the instruments from garbage and unused materials. that explained the name of the group, lungsuran daur can means "recycle" in english.
i read that he was a former stsi lecturer. he learns music by himself and for about 30 years he had done many experiments of making contemporary music instruments. using garbage, unused materials, and anything available around him. his instruments are mostly pentatonic (inspired by sundanese traditional music)
he also made instruments to create sound effect. inspired by the sound of the nature, he created so many unique instruments with unusual and magnificent sound. inspired by tornado winds at the states, he created instrument named tornadong (tornado wind+dong (his name))
also inspired by the tsunami that hit aceh back then in 2004, he created instrument named sagara, sagara means ocean.
he also created instrument from unbelievable and unthinkable garbage, he even made instrument from unused shaver and i once read that he made instrument from his wife's plastic bag that sounds like a fly!
he also creates instruments look like a modern instrument. one of the example is apedong. apedong stands for alat petik dodong (dodong's plucked instrument) apedong is similar with modern guitar. apedong was made from unused material of a crumpled bed and it brings sundanese laras slendro note. there is another example named bassdong (dodong's bass)

very creative, right?

i read at articles in the internet that mr.dodong and his group brings the theme of world music. and they have traveled abroad to have their music heard by all the people in the world. usually his music is collaborated with puppet show, monologue, poetry locally. but internationally, his masterpiece have been played at international folk music festival, even collaborated with orchestra playing classical pieces of mozart with his instrument named sulangsong (some kind of bamboo flute)and played piece named "La Flute Enchantee" which was organized with UNESCO in France in 2006

pak dodong's music is unlimited, he's not only playing traditional music, his instrument can also jazz, classical, pop, latin, melayu, country, and blues. he even make a masterpiece composition dedicated for Vidal Paz-his artist friend from spain- named "Kuntul Flamenco"

all the things about pak dodong inspires me so much. he said that youth must have awareness of the nature and environment protection.
the key is to be


like he said.
his word really motivated me to practice and learn music better. and to be creative in making songs and creation with anything available :)


hope someday i will have the honor to play in one stage with you, sir :D

*actually pak dodong played also at dies natalis itb at june 2009, unfortunately he played at r-ict conference while we (me, mas syarif and mba z) played at biotechnology, fine arts and other conference.
we'll meet soon pak dodong :D

Monday, 10 August 2009


hyaa! it has been a YEARS (no, actually just a month) since the last time that i've updated this blog :)

ok. i'm quite busy with my FIRST YEAR OF UNIVERSITY THINGY.
ok, as i've mentioned before i'm now officially a university student of school of life sciences and technology ITB, alhamdulillah.
unlike other university such as universitas padjajaran and some others, ITB's freshmen the holiday is completely over now :(

and we have to do loads of thing. well, re-registration, getting my KTM (student's card) getting my itb's jacket, and of course a week of orientation -well uh, tortuartion?not sure yet-
i'm enthusiastic, well.

but i'd really prefer to just start studying as soon as possible. and i think that the orientation is rather too long, although the seniors won't scold you and torture you and ask you to walk and run with a giant backpack and then camp in the mountain; but i'm surely will feel all worn off after that. and i won't be able to keep up with my current schedule, night performances, practices, etc.

but well, as a good freshman, i will just follow the orientation, i will not push myself too hard though. i don't want to miss the first lessons due to my sickness if i push myself too hard.

and, university life will start soon.
and i'm curious about how it feels to be a university student. how it feels to hop from one class to class listening to the lecturer. i wonder how calculus subject would be :p
i'm really eager to spend my lunch together with friends at canteen. gather around together with friends to do assignment or just playing all day long.
i also want to try to be a real part of the extracurricular at itb.
ISO, the student orchestra, my dream orchestra :) since the first time i played with them i already had some kind of connection, and i really want to join ISO :)
SEF, i really want to represent itb for national/international debating competition. meaning i have to work extra hard, but that's ok. maybe me, marsha, gladys, or some other friends will be on ALSA UI again (for varsity!!) and WUDC (who knows?)

i really want to work really hard!

and i also want to teach violin for children :) i want to study violin, vocal, and songwriting better. i want to have more job and earn more money (if possible, a permanent job) i want to make many songs and record that and have my own album. i want to contribute more at angsa dan serigala, and hopefully we'll soon have our own.
i also want to get a good GPA, entering microbiology major, and attending one summer school. i want to finish my study on time.
and the most important thing is to have a better love life -not to say that mine is not fabulous right now, but i really want to make my dreams in this love come true, amen!- :)

yeah, so many hopes. but i will strive and pray to fulfill those :)

i will be a bright young lady, someday :)

pray for me :)

*P.S : i will drive a car to campus, hopefully, maybe one or two months from now. but i still have no idea how to drive a car, and of course, i still hasn't got my driving license. do anyone have any idea for a good driving lesson place in bandung? with good car and friendly teacher :)


my holiday, at jogja, candi mendut, with my little brother, ilham. (geez he's almost taller than me right now!)

i really want to pose like that with the man that i really really LOVE :)

detik dan waktu!

omg, singing detik dan waktu at angsa dan serigala's performance at one esteem.
gosh. sooo.. WILD :p

Sunday, 12 July 2009

that's why God make women to deliver babies :)

You’re so sad maybe you should buy a happy meal
You’re so skinny you should really Super Size the deal
Secretly you’re so amused
That nobody understands you
(you're so gay-katy perry)

sometimes i'm really sick seeing my friend (all of them are guys)
who are very weak and desperate and helpless. and well, EMO and SAD.
ok, let me elaborate.

i met one at one of the so-called popular website.
all of the things that the guy talked about was about his weakness. he kept whining all the time. about the fact that he was not a good university graduate but he wanted so bad to 'help' his parent. but he was only complaining all the time, mopping around, and blame his 'not a good university graduate' thingy as the major cause of his not getting a proper job.
ok that was one.

the second one, was friend also, but not that close.
blaming that his family was messed up. his parent was not very warm and communicative. he acted so mean everyday. he never cares about other people's feeling and speaks mean thing hurting other people.
ok, that's one case and still tolerable.

how about double case?
there was a guy much more worse than that. ok, point out that he has a messed up family. and sometimes he said mean things and he didn't have any politeness. but the thing was that guy never moves on and seems to be hinder by all of his surroundings.

and the worst part is when that guy said that..
someone is an over achiever and that's normal because that someone's family is so damn warm, normal, and stinking rich.


get a life won't you? everyone can achieve something if they really want to work hard. it doesn't mean that if your parent has failed to build your personality and stuffs you have to live forever with that personality. i mean, you can learn you can study you can adapt good things from your surroundings to be better.

ok and then he went on that it's pretty much normal if that someone have so many knowledge because that someone's parent always buy them books, and encyclopedias at kinokuniya, qb world, aksara, periplus or just somewhere overseas.

but well hello, this is 21th century. book store with prices over 200thousands IDR is not the only source of knowledge. go to library or download e-books on internet. if you have time to blab around at forum that means that you're able to afford internet also and why don't you use that time and opportunity to download something that can make you a bit brainy?

i don't know what's wrong with some guys lately.
it seems like some guys would prefer to blame their surroundings if something go wrong. and they're just too lazy to be true. they are trapped inside and rather than fixing and improving themselves, blaming and hurting other people seems to be their main activities. geez.

instead of learning to do better, they seem to be more comfortable to think that their failure is understandable due to their messed up family, their peer pressured experience, their lack of education, their physical inability or whatever.

i just think that some guys can be such a sissy sometimes.
and that's really making me sick -_-

women sometimes are much more tougher than men. girl whose parent divorced still can get good grades at school and university. girl who suffers from near death experience and brain death for a few seconds can still life and strive until now(okay, that's me-if i want to be emo, i really have stocks of emo stories of life) ok, girl who suffer from dangerous disease that makes her unable to be exposed by direct sunlight still have spirit to be creative and although it's hard she's still working so hard.

i can conclude that if women and men are exposed to a bad surroundings, men tend to blame the thing and women tend to strive and be better.

maybe this is the reason why God make women not men who suffers from extreme pain and near death situation when they're delivering their babies.
altogether with their nurturing hand and also their great power and spirit to strive, that's true that behind one great man would most probably a one great woman.

i'm proud and happy to be a woman, and i'll always work hard to be a good woman, someday :)

*well, mind the strange ending. it's a bit off topic, but don't blame me, i've had fever and my mind's jumping around everywhere LOL :p

Thursday, 9 July 2009

princess diaries

this is my favorite serial ever :)
and by the way. i've disappeared from a long time for this blog. i've been a bit busy, but well, tonight is quite free. and i'll write about my favorite book review. please do read :)


such a modern fairy tale. a story of a girl named Mia Thermopolis, ordinary teenager at New York City. She is a freshman of Albert Einsten High School. She lives with her mother, an artist named Helen Thermopolis. Helen and her husband, Phillipe has divorced and as long as Mia know her father is a very 'powerful' man at France. and suddenly one day she finds out that she's a heir of a minor European principality named Genovia. she finds out that her father is a crown prince of Genovia, her grandmother (known as grandmere) is the dowager princess of Genovia and her chateau near France is a property of the kingdom that someday she'd rule.
since then, her colorful day began.

despite the fact that she's one of the unpopular kids at school, that she is 6 foot tall, vegetarian, flat chested, flunking algebra, and rather nerdy (but she's really smart and creative, and she do cares a lot about environment-she loves greenpeace-) suddenly her life turns into a new life that she never even thought before.
camera and reporters everywhere.
limousine ride to school everyday.
Lars, full time bodyguard to guide her everyday everywhere.
her face at the headline of newspaper.
a sudden change of behavior from her peers.
a fight with her life time bestfriend, Lilly Moscovitz-literally a genius, who has her own show at local cable tv named Lilly tells it like it is- and find new loving friend named Tina Hakim Baba-a dreamer and romantic novel addict- her father is so rich (maybe mr. hakim baba owns some oli refinery) that she has to be guarded by bodyguard everyday.
fyi, Mia and Tina make promise to lose their precious gift (virginity, i mean, aaaww) at the prom night. omg omg :p
Princess Lesson with her chatty and noisy Granmere, everyday.
attending balls, parties, and other formal principality occasions.
even her crush, the most popular jerks at school dumped his girlfriend for her-the girlfriend is her life time enemy, a famous cheerleader at her school named Lana Weinberger.

being princess is not that easy and pleasant. her life changes dramatically. and she hardly cope with it.
after fighting hard with a lot of ups and downs. finally, she found her true love (well, at that time it seems that that boy is her true love for-ever) her bestfriend's-Lilly Moscovitz- older brother named Michael Moscovitz. Mia has adored Michael forever :)
Michael Moscovitz is well. perfect (i'd really love to have boyfriend like that too)
he's a total valedictorian, science freak, super handsome, member of a band, and goes to college at Colombia University. ok, he's a bit shy and all, but the things that he does to Mia is actually all very sweet :) that was very lucky of her to get Michael..

but the book still hasn't ended there.
with Michael, her life is still so full of upsides downs and surprises.
Mia also runs for the school president against her life time enemy, Lana. oh what a moment :p
at one book, Mia appeared to be concern with Lana's view that college boy always expect their girlfriend to do sex with their girlfriend LOL. and Mia also meets a boy named J.P., a drama and literature lover and a son of a famous movie director, that has as creative brain as Mia, and he hates corn (omg) and Mia writes short story about him, about a boy that hates corn so much until he comitts suicide by jumping into moving train (LOL)
and suddenly Mia has to play a role in a drama named braid together with that boy as the main role (and her Granmere made the scenario and stuffs)

and after that, the big disaster comes. it's from the book number 8~

Michael (which is genius like i've mentioned before) have a chance to work at Japan to make a robotic arm to perform cardiac surgery and have to go for years. she begins to suffer before her boyfriend's departure date. what if he fallen for a cute japanese girl? what if? what if? what if? and finally she decide to have sex with Michael. but when they're about to do it, Mia discover that Michael has lost his precious gift a long long time ago. and Mia is really furious and accuse Michael as a liar.
and they break up.
and Mia also become close with J.P. at the same time (when J.P. is also being Lilly's boyfriend)
and at Michael's departure day, Mia still hasn't said anything.. and she kissed J.P. (who had been very helpful and nice to her) in front of Lilly and Michael.
Lilly turns to loathe her.
Michael goes to japan without any word.

and book number 9? Mia is depressed. really depressed ( i can understand her feeling, i will be that depressed if i lose someone ) Mia turns to be a bit mentally shaken and she has to go to therapy, Michael doesn't give any indication that he will ask Mia to be hers again, Lilly is ignoring her and being super mean to her, and someone makes that really torns her apart.
but finally, she can recover. and also at the end of the 9th book, he kisses J.P. and start to consider to open her heart for someone new.
and finally i read the 10th book. just yesterday.
the 10th book actually has been launched since january or december, but due to my university test i couldn't read it at all.

oh, and i won't give any spoiler. because the 10th book is the best of all :)
ok, a bit of spoiler then. 2 years after the 9th book Mia finally spend her last day at high school. ok, she gets into every school she applied and she thinks it's all because of her being a princess.
and she says to everyone that her senior project is about an essay of olive oil making history at genovia. but it's actually a 200 pages romance novel.
and prom night is approaching, and she is unsure whether she wants to go with J.P. or not, and J.P. still hasn't asked her to go.
Michael Moscovitz.. is coming back from japan! he has succesfully made the robotic arm, and becoming a millionare right now. and he's back in TOWN.

well, just read it if you wanna know who WILL be the REALLY TRUE LOVE OF MIA :)

*well this book is really worth reading. it's so funny and romantic, for those who love comedy-romance. and meg cabot is a real genius, i love her and her book, and i also really want to have a writing like her, she tells the story in a simple but meaningful language and also she has a really strong characterization.
forgive me for the long and bad review and bad english. i just love to write so much and i wanna be a good writer someday :)

Friday, 3 July 2009

tumblr and blogspot..

well, right now i'm currently using tumblr more.

here's my tumblr.

i write rather serious post and something educational (yihaa) here at my blogspot.
and i write something lighter and cuter at my tumblr.
because right now i don't really have time to write something educational, valuable and serious in english, i'm updating my tumblr more :p

you'd better read both :D
and in tumblr i use bahasa, it's such a playful and fun blog :)

and well, wait for my next posts. about dorian, lydian, etc. mode of music and many more :) and some new recipe as well :)

Friday, 26 June 2009

recording lalala♫

fifa. kak poppy. kak ardit.shining and sparkling enermous pearl drum.

we were at master plan studio, owned by uki peter pan. the drum was really amazing -said kak poppy- and really noisy -said me-

we recorded one of our song. the studio is just so good :)

it was my first time to do recording there. the sounding was so good. they put me inside cubicle to reduce high and reverb (this is exactly what i need, violin is really troublesome with HIGH. if you don't ask the sound man to 'cut' your high and increase your middle, it will make you hear loud and terrible high pitched noises) and they also used sensitive microphones in front of me and above me, while still pluging my pick up into a direct box.

hope the result will be satisfying! and hope that people will love it :)

always ♥ you all so much, angsadanserigala!

Thursday, 25 June 2009

finally, prom nine

ok, finally. some post about prom nine of sman 3 bandung class of 2oo9 :)
for the short summary : it was quite enjoyable and -well- have to admit that my dress is so good LOL.

tuesday,23rd of june 2oo9

ok, the day started with usual routine. and i remembered that i have to go to school to get my Dana Titipan Pendidikan and also picked up rudini, and also bought my bag ( i hadn't got one )
so i went to school and finished up the DTP thingy. i didn't even know that my mom's stored this money at school 3 years ago, but whatever! :p after that i waited for rudini triyadi -my escort tonight- at kantin sehat sman 3 bandung.
i sat with silat and nyonyo, we discussed about our itb re-registration stuffs. and finally rudini came, and we went to pvj.
we went directly to the place that my sister had suggested (beside carrefour escalator) and gotcha. i found her (EHM, her) a nice and pretty blue-silver bag. it was 108000 IDR, and i used my own money. but the bag was really good, so i didn't regret my choice :p
and after buying korea's ice cream and pretzel dog we went home.

and i waited for air crash investigation after lunch, but it didn't show up. so i slept. i was really tired and sleepy. and i woke up at about 3pm and had to go directly to the salon.

i went to lenny fora salon, quite near from my house.
this is me and my sister's regular salon for big events, such as : this prom night. i went there when i had to sing with traditional costume when i was still at bina vokalia pranadjaja (LOL), i went there for my elementary school graduation, i went there for my junior high graduation, i also went there for my performance with the titans back there =)
first they washed my hair.
and before they did something to my hair, i gave them a picture of cinderella (an original disney picture) and gave them my tiara.
and the hair stylist thought that i was a junior high student (LOL)
and they did a lot of thing with my hair. the result was amazing, despite of my limited short hair.
and they did the make up. i really hate the part when they use icecube before they put foundation on my face. and i hate when they sticked false eyelashes on my eyes. i hate when they put mascara.

but the result is quite incredible :)

oh, scary. those gigantic eyes and fake eye lashes LOL :D

at home, i put all of the costume and accessories. gown, gloves, choker, and heels.
after that, i did some photo shoot with rudini. my sister really wanted to do photo manipulations for me, rudini, and both. i posed as a cinderella, and rudini as... hmm, korean prince? LOL.


and after that, i tried my best to put everything inside my bag. handphone, two wallets, tissue, camera, eye glasses case, battery, and everything.
but i ended up not bringing my gigantic wallet and leaving some money, my ID, and my credit card on my bag.

finally we arrived at grand aquilla. ok my prom.
i filled up the guest book and got some pop corn. and i looked around. there were pami (she was gorgeous with her black and red dress plus extra high heels) and peni (very cute with her witch dress and small hat)
finally we went upstairs to the ballroom. i walked with rudini and we posed in front of the red carpet (yeah just like movie stars)

and we went inside to sit. the ballroom wasn't very occupied and we picked a place to sit. first we sat with gita and upi.
then we sat with bunch of 3ipa8 girls(silat, seli,manda, nyonyo, tania,nenden, etc.) and ichil and wita.

great banquet :)

people kept coming. their dress and tux and costume were incredible :)
let's write their costumes (according to my memory)

almira wore a cleopatra costume. cool.
apri wore a gatotkaca costume. cool.
silat, ipong and many others were dressing up with korean costume.

hey, the girls :)

ael and okky came together. ael wore a black gown and okky wore a romanian soldier costume. oh gosh, perfect.
febia wore a snow white costume. yeay, disney!
aqis wore a little red riding hood plus her fruit basket. another disney.

two disney princess :)

asmi was a willy wonka. cool.
nyonyo wore a french maid costume. pretty.
and so many more amazing gowns and costumes and tuxedos.

marsha's gown is so pretty and elegant :)

anty and silat were also beautiful :)

and the party began.
but well, since i am still a quiet cinderella. i just sat there, talking, and taking some photos and try to enjoy the thing. finally we ate while watching 2009's video, it was quite good and i was starving too. i ate some rice, some chicken, lasagna, and soup.

and the 2009 performances began.
there were bands, tiloe's theater, and so on. and bands and bands and bands. LOL.

i sat still but my heart was enjoying the party :) watching all of my friends, some were sitting still, some were dancing crazily on the dance floor, some were eating again, some were chatting happily.
i smiled and try to capture all of the scene on my mind. as my sweetest high school memory :)

tick tock. the clock was ticking. it was almost 11.30 pm. and i felt really sleepy and tired.
and to really played my part as a cinderella. i really have to go home before 00am.
first, i didn't want to transform to the real cinderella, with poor clothes.
second, my car would transform into a pumpkin. then how would i go home? my home was near, but i didn't want to walk. i'd rather check myself in to get some room at grand aquila LOL.
third, i didn't want to lose one of my mom's high heels. she'd extremely furious.
fourth, tomorrow would be a tiring day. recording and stuffs.
fifth, i was really tired. finally i thanked God that Angsa dan Serigala didn't have to play at prom. if they played, i have to stay until the end of the prom, because our performance would be at the end (or near the end) of the prom. that'd be around 1am or 2am. i hate midnight performance :p

oh and i finally went home.

i was super tired.

and when i came home, it was 15 minutes before 00 am. great, i made it just in time! :)
i cleaned up my face. and slept still with my unnormal hair. LOL.


ok. now high school has ended. but the memory will never fade. but still now... it's time to :


yihaa! ^^ School of Life Sciences and Technology!

Wednesday, 24 June 2009

cinderella maen facebook♥

it's quite strange. a cinderella is playing facebook with her lenovo♥ LOL!

prom nine was quite great, i'll give you a post with that after i've finished my band's recording :)

Tuesday, 23 June 2009

a cinderella costumed-afifa♥

prom nine!
ok tonight :)
THE prom night. something that mia thermopolis from the princess diaries serial just really can't wait (for the sake of giving each other's precious gift with michael thermopolis LOL-argh, i haven't read the latest edition. will they be together again? but i vote for J.P. more ^^)

well, me? for the sake of using my cute cinderella gown, i can't wait for tonight too.
but wait, why did i choose to be a cinderella?
i didn't mean to really imitate cinderella, actually. i has the gown. better than cutting off my salary and use it to make another dress, i would prefer something available. some of my friend said that wearing costume is imitating characters and it means that you're not being yourself.,

but i think, clothes is just an outer crust of someone. i'm not being cinderella. but i'm being afifa that wears cinderella costume. and i think i want to look like a princess sometimes. ok, this is silly. but i think every girl has this obsession (at least when they were just a child) an obsession to become pretty and beautiful, wearing fancy dress and attending ball dance :) if you don't have it, no hard feelings. LOL.
and i also want to emphasize that everyone can be beautiful with a beautiful dress and a sincere heart :) you'll never find a princess in a fairy tale like me, but today i'm being a one day princess :) a cinderella costumed afifa :)

and oh well, this is my prom (and this is my smashing argument and my team split-oh, i miss english debating-) and it's everybody's right to wear anything to express themselves.
i choose to express myself with this princess dress. i don't want to reflect ONLY an outer beauty of a fairy tale princess, the thing that i really want to express is their sincere and beautiful heart.

i hope that i also have that, as a cinderella costumed-afifa :)
everybody can be a princess. everybody can always wear a crown and tiara. every girl is beautiful :)
and i know i always be my dad's little princess :D LOL. (though now maybe i'm a bit too old for the word 'little princess' i'm almost 18, geez)

ah, and now checklist!
cinderella gown (checked)
tiara (checked)
blue velvet choker (checked)
hand gloves (checked)
high heels (checked)
clutch bag (ah,still have to find it)
sincere heart (checked checked. this is the most important thing!)

i'll go to the salon at 3.30 pm, to do the make up (i want it to be simple and elegant) and the hair do (just like cinderella's hair)
i'll go to the prom with rudini. he'll be a korean prince costumed-rudini. LOL. we'll have loads of fun~ let's enjoy prom NINE guys, this is our once in a life time experienced! :)

*hope that it won't be too tiring. coz tomorrow i have to be my brother's "soundgirl" in his performance at his school. and also i'll have angsa's recording session :)

i'm happy. and i'm sincere.
i'm princess afifa (rofl)
thanks all♥

Saturday, 20 June 2009

all you need is love.

yes, indeed. all you need is love.

do a little demon deserve to beloved also?


when you don't have a beautiful face. have a beautiful heart.
but what do you have to do when you don't have it both?
a little demon.

oh, my week♥

so let's see. i've disappeared for 5 days from this blog ( i mean posting something serious or something rather long )
and now. i've spent whole day on my bed. not making songs, practicing violin, piano or vocal, nor doing any performance or job. i'm having my period and it feels slightly more hurt than usual. well, thanks for my laptop, my dolls, anyone who have their account on on ym or plurk or facebook and accompanying me all day long, and the strange internet connection in my room.

so where have i been?

itb held an international conference on energy and environment.and klabklassik string trio (me, syarif, mbak zisa) played there. people always need music, especially after a conference like that. their brains definetely need something relaxing :)
and we played the usual format (me-vocal, violin, syarif-guitar, mbak zisa-cello) and the usual song list. except that we tried to add indonesian songs. traditional things like seputih melati, sirih kuning, and bandung. and oldies stuffs. like chrisye's song and things like tembang kenangan and stuffs LOL.

and it was quite a good and relaxing performances.

firstly on monday, we played at aula barat itb at biotechnology conference while the participants had their lunch. and the next performance was scheduled to be on 5 pm, at boulevard. but it rained pretty bad. so our performance was on gsg, and it started on 7pm or so. we had to wait for almost 6 hours. and we ate a lot. first at university bookstore then we went to warung pasta. oh, oh, gembul string trio. LOL.

*hha. warung pasta*

and we played duo etude, while having THE COMPOSER of the song there (mas ammy i mean, he played for the dinner-duh) it was really terrifying.
i almost slipped my bow off :p
and mas ammy said our mimic were extraordinary. and a bit scary. haha, but mine was better than mas syarif's and mbak zisa's. at least i tried to smile (i mean if i played really bad, people would not be that mad to me when my face is happy and smiley)
and after playing duo etude and korobushka (back to the old days) we played canon in d for maybe 15 minutes or so for the music background of a fashion show. oh God. i really felt like my left hand had fallen off. LOL.

*my hand must be trembling*

on tuesday we played with different personel. mas syarif had so many students (oh how i want to be a music teacher like him) so he could not play. besides, we weren't supposed to play on tuesday, we were replacing ISO's performance. so we played with mas hendy, my sister's friend. and it was really good :) and we played at boulevard campus center because suprisingly it didn't rain. i was quite happy, especially i could sing my favourite song, i will fly ten 2 five. and i met my ITB 2oo9 friends also. they're in itb's bridging program. there were regy, bori, etc. i was quite surprised to see them.

*our guest star, hendy reinaldo*

we had a day on wednesday. so i took that day to check my health at bumi medika ganesha (for usm's purpose) and finished all administration thingy up. finishing my satu atap first song (yippie, finally!) taking my violin course. and going to the dentist (-_-) well i have to wear braces (you see my tooth is extraordinarily bad and crowded) so lotta of thing have to be done before august.

we started again on thursday. it was a quite nice performance also. and i met agung :D he was also in the bridging program. and oh, we got our fee today. it made me really really happy. i have to earn lot of money for my future. it felt different when we can buy things with our own money, and it'd also be wonderful if finally i could earn for living :)

*thursday :)*

and the last day was friday. i went to school again to get my uan's score. it was not outstanding. but i'm quite satisfied, because i really did all of the questions by myself. and i got 9,25 at my biology. i'm quite pleased :) after that i went to bni, storing my money to my account. and i went to melodia. actually i wanted to register myself for abrsm music test, but then i just got the information that the registration for bandung test this september has ended. i think i'll go for 2o1o maybe for grade 7 or 8. may~be. and then i went to itb, for the performance. me and my sister ate first at university bookstore, i was really starving. and finally i could put on eye shadow and eye liner by myself (of course with my sister's help also) and i met so many 2oo9s and made friends with some. great! :)

*oh, the last day :)*

and after that me with my mom accompanied my brother to his guitar concert. at maximo cafe puri setiabudi. it was shivering cold. especially when i only wore thin stocking. and i got no jacket.

ah, and finally the long week is over.

today actually i want to go to klabklassik's guitar seminar at boromeus hall. but i got my period. and well, i could not get up.

ah. this post is getting too long.
actually i want to write about klabklassik string trio's history. but. well this post has been too long -_-
ok, i rest my case! i'll post about klabklassik string trio's history and some post about musicality later on.

byebye! thanks for reading.


Wednesday, 17 June 2009

day 2!

klabklassik string trio at international conference of sustainable energy.
16 June 2oo9. 5 pm. Boulevard Campus Center ITB.
afifa ayu-azisa noor. featuring:hendy reinaldo.

*still 2 performances left :)

Tuesday, 16 June 2009

international conference day 1

klabklassik string trio. afifa ayu-azisa noor-syarif maulana
GSG ITB 7 pm 15th of June 2009

Sunday, 14 June 2009

bon voyage!

this is my first fashion label post. enjoy it:)

dress-n.Y.L.a . . short sleeved cardigan-esprit .. bag-from milan .. sandal-colehan.

**model : afifa ayu
photo manipulation : azisa noor

grow me love♥

you see, love is something that you have to nurture carefully everyday, just like a new born baby or a plant seeds.

it takes time to grow love. you have to nurture the seed everyday, until it grows bigger, bigger, and happier :)

oh, today is 14th of june. thanks GOD.

time to fight :]

hello all! :)
i'm sorry for not updating this blog for 4 days(or maybe more) i've been quite busy lately.
i really want to optimize this holiday. and i have quite a lot of projects to be done.

1. making 2 songs for "satu atap" comic soundtrack

yeah. comic soundtrack. maybe some of you are feeling weird with the word 'comic soundtrack' but my sister's comic will be brought up by gramedia. the comic title is satu atap. well, i'm not gonna tell you the story here, because it'd be spoiler.
and my sister need someone to make the comic sooundtrack song. the comic soundtrack song will be related to the comic and will be used for the promotion process. and stuffs.
that's quite a good deal for me :) my sister asks for 2 songs, happy and slow. i'm currently working on the happy song. after everything's done, we'll have to do the recording stuffs.

the music format will be vocal (me), piano (my sister), violin 1&2(me), viola (my sister), cello (my sister's boyfriend), drum set or maybe maracas is enough(maybe my brother LOL), and... GLOCKENSPIEL (everyone wants to play glockenspiel and i'm really obsessed to make a song with a touch of glockenspiel. it's so sweet and dreamy!)
i'll have to buy glockenspiel. or maybe i'll lend to kak angkuy hahaha.

2. angsa dan serigala's recording session
recording two songs.. and i'm not gonna tell you what song that we'll be recording, cause it'll also be a spoiler. the recording will take place at ujung berung, 2 whole days. i'm so excited :)

3. and well, performances
as usual angsa dan serigala's performances at the end of the month, klabklassik string trio performance at some international seminar for three days next week, musik sore klabklassik, ririungan gitar bandung (seems like i'm gonna play guitar again yippie) and many more.

4. while i have to practice for my ABRSM sixth grade music examination PLUS music theory examination.

5. and i have to read a bit about microbiology, biodiversity and stuffs.
i don't wanna be retarded in School of Life Sciences and Techonology ITB in next august :)

6. and i have to learn to drive a car to get my driver's license.

7. Lomba Cipta Lagu Perlindungan Lapisan Ozon from Kementrian Negara Lingkungan Hidup.
thanks for mba putri to give me the news of this competition. i'll try to follow this competition as well. i have to do many practices. and this competition will be one of the practice for me to be a great composer someday (amin!) and well, fyi the price is 15 million (IF YOU WIN) and your song's copyright will be taken by the ministry. and the competition requires us to write the partitur also. well -_- but it's really still worth trying, although i'm not really expecting myself to win. but i have to try :)

and that's all (hopefully)
i'll be very busy and tired for sure. but that's worth it.
i have to be a super creative and succesful girl.
thanks God for all of your bless :)
just pray for me and leave supportive words on the comment box LOL :)
gotta catch all of my dreams up in the sky!

and right now i'm as bright and happy like this YIPPIE! time to reach my dreams!


p.s : two weeks from now i'll be 18! :) and today is special :)


angsa dan serigala at e-plex paris van java. taken from someone's mobile phone camera.

Wednesday, 10 June 2009

musical imagination..

have you ever wondered why beethoven's most brilliant composition appeared years after he had been completely deaf?

there's something called musical imagination.

assume that you're someone with an extraordinary musical imagination. picture yourself sitting still at your living room in a warm afternoon. and suddenly a melody or an orchestra suddenly play inside your room. you're not listening to a tv or radio. but that melody suddenly appears in your mind. you're not exactly hearing it, but your imagining it.
as an extreme example, take beethoven. when he had been completely deaf, his auditory lobe of his brain was not divided anymore to hear sounds and to imagine sounds. that made his auditory lobe even more sensitive to this musical imagination.
and melodies, rhythms, accompaniment start to pop in his head.

really you don't have to hear things to make music. if you have great ability on musical imagination.

some might only imagine music playing inside his head. maybe from music sheet or music that they have heard.
some might imagine simple melodies and frames.
and some might have an orchestra playing (his own beyond consciousness) symphony or concerto.
some might feel that imaging music before concerts and stuffs (mental practice) feels almost the same as physical practice, and almost as beneficial as physical practice.

it's such a great gift that God gives to them.
that's also explain why people who don't read musical note and even understand it can make a great song. great melodies, patterns, and rhythms keep popping in their head.

for me?
well. maybe i only have a little of this ability.
i can imagine melodies in my head. but i have to think it before. it doesn't appear by itself.
maybe this ability will surely help you on creating songs and composing and arranging songs.
but.. i have to be grateful for the things that God have given to me.

and keep struggling to create new fresh songs that you'll like!


harus banyak tersenyum, bersyukur, dan beramal. nanti kebahagiannya datang :) amin!

Tuesday, 9 June 2009

thank you :)

afifa ayu (student)

ammy ch. kurniawan (teacher)

i can't say how much that i love you mas ammy :)
thank you for bringing me into this lovely world of violin and music♥

*thank you for the lovely photographs, kak amel meilan :)

Monday, 8 June 2009

soo excited!

i'm enjoying myself right now. because i've just got a NEW LAPTOP! yiippie :)

meet her (geez, it has a gender -__-)

a pink lenovo s10. that i bought at telkomsel customer day yesterday at BSM after i had a wedding singer (again) job. well but don't assume that i use my salary to buy this laptop, mom and pa bought this laptop for me.

not that my toshiba before was not sufficient for me. actually the feature was sufficient (since i only use laptop for facebook, blogging, plurking, chatting, browsing, making silly stories, making assignments, making songs and arranging songs with sibellius, mixing songs sometimes and another simple activities..)
but the real problem is that..

the toshiba is too heavy for me.
but i'm not kidding.
yeah, if you know me you can see although i'm a bit fat (or i'm fat, actually) i'm really short and.. well. really WEAK. LOL.
and i think carrying that big toshiba would be a real torturation for me when i have to walk in ITB haha. i mean first year i would have big lectures combined with other major in place like GKU barat, GKU timur, tvst, moving all year round.

so i bought this netbook.
a pink one (i had to spend extra two hundred thousand rupiah, but for a PINK LAPTOP, i think it's quite worthy)
at first i was confused with the word 'netbook' well netbook is actually quite the same with notebook. but when notebook is identical with 12 inch size or bigger, netbook is identical with 12 inch size and smaller. and mine is 10 inch.
and netbook doesn't provide as sophisticated feature as notebook. its processor is still intel atom, not core duo. but i don't really need a high tech computer actually, as long as it works for the function i've mentioned before.

and how about the smile and chic vaio like papa's?
oh that's notebook. small notebook. small appearance. as light as netbook. but as sophisticated as notebook. but that means a price higher than ten million.
no thanks.

but i'm very happy with this laptop(yea yea, netbook) i love pink, besides the keyboard is really comfortable to be used.
but the thing that i like most is that..

the weight is only 1,25 kg.
thanks God!
thanks mom pa!


*any suggestion for my new laptop name? pinky? that seems too cheesy.. LOL.


i love her for the rest of my life.
God just give me the best. whatever will happen next, i hope that it will still be like my deepest prayer everyday :)

Saturday, 6 June 2009

strange fable♥

mr. crocodile and ms. littlebird.
by mr. tiggy and ms. piggly

once upon a time, in a far far away forest. mister crocodile and miss littlebird met by coincidence. miss littlebird helped mister crocodile when mister crocodile was caught by a hunter. miss. littlebird actually had fallen in love a long long before the situation happened. offered by mister crocodile one thing from him to do for miss littlebird.
happily miss littlebird said, "then, let me live with you mister crocodile. i want to be near you everyday"
pretending to agree, mister crocodile said with a huge smile showing his big and sharp teeth, "ok, i'll be with you."
but actually without miss littlebird's knowing mister crocodile was a very mean crocodile. and he only wanted to eat miss littlebird later on.
despite of miss littlebird's true love, for mister crocodile, miss littlebird was just his another prey.

days passed.
everyday miss littlebird always followed mister crocodile everywhere. mister crocodile always lost his desire and hunger because when he wanted to eat miss littlebird, miss littlebird always smiled to him.
miss littlebird always brought him some present everyday.
miss littlebird always told him funny stories.
miss littlebird was always at his side, stroking his skin gently with her little wing.

everytime miss littlebird smiled to him, eventually he smiled also.
everytime miss littlebird hugged him, eventually he hugged her also.
love had grown in a cold heart like mister crocodile's.
love had grown because of the sincerity of the miss littlebird's heart.

and finally mister crocodile said, " i love you for the rest of my life, my littlebird"

you see, love can grow.
love can change everything.
love is the ultimate power of all.
i am not afraid anymore. because i have love. love from God, parent, siblings, family, friends, bestfriends, and my best.

even from two very different creatures, love will grow, from sincerity and smile :)
being different in love is quite important, that's how we can complete each other :)


h-8 post hha.


as guest star at latihan konser 4 peniti at bumi sangkuriang on 4th of june 2oo9.
playing tiada from 4 peniti.

thank you mas ammy, mbak utet, mas ari, mas rudi, mas zaki.
thank you for letting me play there, i've learned a lot from you all

*thanks for the nice photograph mr. tiggy!

Thursday, 4 June 2009


i love to sing. and i love to play violin.
i love to do it both.
although it makes me rather maceuh. LOL!

*and btw, the boy playing the guitar is my younger brother. he's awesomee :)

3 years of everything :)

today i went to school.

for what?
1. to collect envelopes that'd be used to deliver my UAN's result (oh my God.why can't school provide us?i mean it's just envelope and 3ooorupiah stamp!)
2. to donate book for the library. it's compulsory to get a 'library free notice' to make your STTB issued. LOL.

and i wore uniform (although i didn't wear belt, and socks, and black proper shoes-instead i wore black crocs haha)

but do you know how i felt?
walking inside the school was entirely different than months before. wearing uniform inside school was different. greeting
i felt touched.

let's do some flash back.
10-5. 11 ipa 7. 12 ipa 9.
mk3. band3. english club 3->student english forum 3.

first grade. PLIST (sorry i only attended 1 days of PLIST) awkward new student. awkward extra big uniform. hardly kept up with the lesson. after school mk practice. band audition. broken ankle. unfair decision. decided to forget my love of my life, because he had been so cruel. got my first report card. had my first crush at high school. shocked. learned to live a new life. AFS test. spent more time debating and competing english than playing music. had a scandal here and there. really wanted to quit. almost found my true love but it ended badly. finally found other thing outside school. ran away. dengue fever. second report card (which was good!) moving to second grade, science class. went everywhere with ITB Student Orchestra during the summer break.

second grade. still awkward. got to know some new best friends with golden hearts. started to love someone named bear so much. started to be the klabklassik string duo. started to know the real music world, jobs, offers to play with widely known band as a string section, orchestras. audition for OSNI. got accepted at short AFS program to japan. resital dua gitar. heart melt than heart break. went to japan with heart as cold as winter. went home, desperately want to search a new love. ALSA UI, heart wrenching competition. ended up as quarter finalist, after being defeated by our own brother and sister. heart break. debate depressed. suddenly spent more time playing music than debating. accepted at twilite youth. new crush. another fight. strange crush. another fight and scandals. got A mark on my violin 5th grade examination (unbelievable) suddenly an angel came during the semester test. fourteen-o-six-o-eight. the refusal. my second rank. heart breaking events during holiday.

third grade. the hardest part of all. the first semester was all about depressed and refusal. tears and tears and tears. found it extremely hard to catch up with the study. joined primagama with my best friend. tears again and again. started to do tryouts, which was quite well. started to review things from first and second grade. being found by my dearest band angsa dan serigala. started to play violin more. more heart breaking issues. i'm all outta love. really lost my grip. third rank at class. things got better and better and settled down! (alhamdulilah) joined daniel. and daniel became my second home. second semester was better and more focused. i studied hard everyday. and i began to play with klabklassik string duo->klabklassik string trio frequently. i played with angsa dan serigala so much too. i got jobs and sang everywhere. i won 3rd prize of musikustix kompas song writing competition. life got better (alhamdulillah) daniel tryouts was satisfying. SIMAK UI. USM 1 ITB-> FKM UI, SITH ITB (ALHAMDULILLAH) and then national examination. bermuda triangle. school's examination. it was like crap. ujian praktek. it was also like crap :p last day of school, it was music. i played quite well. help rsbi selection and stuffs.

and here i am now.
waiting for august.
and... missing my school, my sman 3 bandung..

although sometimes i hate my school. i hate some of the way we get education there. i hate to see that this school is really occupied by brilliant people and i have to work like a lunatic to keep on with them. i hate to do some routine in my school. i hate to remember that i had some bad memories in some clique. i hate to remember that i had act strange to some cliques and lost contact with them. i hate to remember that sometimes i am a complete nerd.
although i felt dozens of bad memories.
my good memories were uncountable.

i love this school! i have learned to strive so much in this high school. without this high school i would never learn about hard work and also accepting destiny. i also have learned that there are so many types of people and there are different ways to deal with people. i also found some true friends here. i found great teachers and i actually i get a good education here. i found english debating through this school. this school is like a simulation of life for me, with many challenging troubles, types of people, and happiness.

for the conclusion.

3 years at SMA Negeri 3 Bandung is very remarkable for me. 3 years of everything :)
thank you my dear friends.
thank you my honourable teachers.thank you for teaching me those lesson of life.
i just hope that we all will remember this memory till the end of time. and we all could pass high school with satisfying result. and continue our study in good university and having a better life after this :)

i'll miss you and love you so much, my highschool memories!

Wednesday, 3 June 2009

1oo : )

kak ashaf tagged me on facebook the questions were quite good :)

1. Last beverage = esprit passionfruit.
2. Last phone call = mom.
3. Last text message = tigger.
4. Last song you listened to = some burgmuller my sister played.
5. Last time you cried = this monday, after aNs briefing..
6. Dated someone twice = yup.
7. Been cheated on = dunno.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it = omg! hahaha.
9. Lost someone special = yes :(
10. Been depressed = used to.i
11. Been drunk and threw up = never been drunk -_-

12. light pink
13. white
14. maroon

15. Made a new friend = yes of course :)
16. Fallen out of love = hmm.
17. Laughed until you cried = yes :)
18. Met someone who changed you = hm, yes :)
19. Found out who your true friends were = maybe.
20. Found out someone was talking about you =yes.l
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list = omg omg omg!! hahaha.
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life = maybe 3/4 of them.
23. How many kids do you want to have = 2. twin!
24. Do you have any pets = fish.
25. Do you want to change your name = nooo!
26. What did you do for your last birthday = pray
27. What time did you wake up today = 7.30.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = sleeping.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = tigger.
30. Last time you saw your Mother = last saturday.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? = no. i'm grateful for my life :)
32. What are you listening to right now = tv.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom = nope.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now = new songs to be made. hufh. deadline -_-
35. Most visited webpage = facebook, goggle, plurk
36. Whats your real name = afifa ayu koesoema.
37. Nicknames = fifa.
38. Relationship Status = i don't know LOL.
39. Zodiac sign = cancer
40. Male or female? = female
41. Elementary? = SDN Banjarsari 2 Bandung
42. Middle School = SMPN 5 Bandung
43. High School/College = SMUN 3 BDG
44. Hair colour = black
45. Long or short = short
46. Height = 143 cm. hha. hobbits LOL.
47. Do you have a crush on someone? =of course. i'm so in love everyday. HOEK.
48: What do you like about yourself? = hm. everything :)
49. Piercings = nope.
50. Tattoos = nope. it hurts.
51. Righty or lefty = righty

52. First surgery = not yet. alhamdulilah.
53. First piercing = never had a piercing.
54. First best friend = nawangwulan nitisuari.
55. First sport you joined = swimming.
56. First vacation = dunno.
58. First pair of trainers = dunno haha.

59. Eating = nothing. i've eaten. remember?
60. Drinking = esprit passionfruit.
61. I'm about to = practice violin again. duh -_- torturing my sister with my etude book.
62. Listening to = tv.
63. Waiting for = tigger.

64. Want kids? = of course! twin!
65. Get Married?= of courseee :)
66. Career? = biology lecturer+musican and music teacher

67. Lips or eyes? = lips hahha.
68. Hugs or kisses? = XOXO. that means both :)
69. Shorter or taller? = taller, of course.
70. Older or Younger? = older is fine.haha.
71. Romantic or spontaneous ? = being romantic in a spontaneous way :)
72. Nice stomach or nice arms? = stomach,haha
73. Sensitive or loud ? = sensitive is better.
74. Hook-up or relationship? = RELATIONSHIP!!! of course!!
75. Trouble maker or hesitant? = hesitant.

76. Kissed a stranger? = nope.
77. Drank hard liquor? = nope. gimme one :D
78. Lost glasses/contacts? = lost glasses. one day before my departure to japan! LOL.l
79. Sex on first date? = omg. never ah.
80. Broken someone's heart? = maybe sometimes :(
81. Had your own heart broken? = yeah, so many times.
82. Been arrested? = no. for what?
83. Turned someone down? = yes.
84. Cried when someone died? = yes.
85. Lied to your bestfriend? = i think yes.

86. Yourself? = :)
87. Miracles? = YES OF COURSE. miracle will come to those who wait!
88. Love at first sight? = hm nope.
89. Heaven? = yes. insyaAllah :)
90. Santa Claus?= hahaha. nope
91. Kiss on the first date?= no.
92. Angels? = yes.

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time? = just 1.
95. Did you sing today? = yes a bit.
96. Ever cheated on somebody? = no. i don't have the guts.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? = june 2008
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? = 14 june 2008.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? = not at all.
100. Posting this as 100 truths? = yes! :)

Tuesday, 2 June 2009


photography Pictures, Images and Photos

yes i certainly do!♥

how life is still too diverse for me.

color Pictures, Images and Photos

how life is still too diverse for me.

angsa dan serigala♥

i can't say how much i love you guys!♥

i'll fly away.

17 almost 18 years old.

yes i'm still young, very young.
frankly, i cannot say "yes" when i have to be commit 1oo% for something. even if i love that thing so much.

i even haven't STARTED university yet.
whatever happens, having (at least) bachelor degree. for me it's a must. music industry sometimes fluctuate. and i think that having back ups is very important. i love music very much, it's the thing that i love the most, actually.
i cannot let my parent down. they have given me good education and facilities. and they have paid so much for my university and i really think that i have to be exceptionally good at my study, like my sisters. i still have dream to be a biologist. taking master degree or maybe doctoral degree. i still want to take exchange program.

in the meantime, music is still have to be number two for me.
but i don't know what will happen 5 years or 7 years from now, maybe i will dedicated my life fully on music.
but for now, music is still a part time job for me .

besides, i still need to find my music.
i love violin, yes i really do. and i do love to sing also.
i love playing at my band as well, while playing at orchestras is also my passion. playing here and there with my klabklassik string trio is still something that i really love. playing as a soloist is still preferable. and playing as wedding entertainment is something that i've just started.
i love folk, i like classical music. i love pop songs. i kinda like rock sometimes.

for me music is still so DIVERSE.
and i think right now it is the time for me to open up myself for everything. it is the time for me to learn anything available. play everywhere. searching for friends and connections.
and my violin playing is still, well, not very distinctive. rather flat. still copying my senior's style.
i still haven't found my soul. i still have so many things to learn. i still have to finished my classical study. i still have to develop my skill. i still want to learn another genre, such as jazz, blues, etc.

the future is still too blurry for me.
the entire world is still too enermous for me.
the pathway of my life is still so long.

it's still the time for me to fly with my little wings everywhere. searching for the right future for me :)

and someday finally i'll stop flying.
someday when i finally reach my final destination.
someday when i finally reach my future!

". apapun posisi aku sekarang, kalau memang rezeki dan jodoh, pasti gak akan kemana, pasti aku akan tetap bersama kalian sampai akhir nanti."


but now i'll fly a bit.
searching for my future.
adventuring in this big world.
flying beneath the big and dainty sky in front of me.
reaching all of my dreams!

p.s. : i'm sorry for being self centered. thanks for your understanding, i really do love you all a lot. let's pray and work hard together for US!
thanks for being the PART of my life guys :)