here we go again :)

oh hello! seems like i haven't written anything on this blog for.. almost 1 year (the last post was on 26th of january 2011 and now it is 21st of january 2012.

well many things has happened in the past one year. my life is great, really great.
academic thing is still going fine, my band and my music career is superb, my band has just launched its first album, i'm still doing my wedding singer chores plus now recording for some project plus collaborating with my fellow musician. now i'm teaching violin plus owning an online cake shop, which gives me a considerable amount of cash :p

but when it comes to love. well i just can say that i'm still unfortunate.

lucky me, my past lover the 'He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named' is totally gone right now.

it took me 3 years and 5 months, 6 stupid it's complicated status, 1 sincere yet heart wrenching telenovela-like relationship (that i suppose until now is my TRUE love), and 1 salvation + a bit foolish but sweet relationship (i suppose until now is my second candidate of true love and my first candidate of the MOST SINCERE relationship)
well it took that much effort to get rid of him, i think he put a spell on me :p

well, but now i want to tell you about my a bit foolish but sweet relationship, the second candidate of true love and the first candidate of the most sincere relationship.

well, it just has ended (approximately 3 hours ago)
It was really short (in my parameter), 2 months and 14 days. at first it was like a fairy tale but well, in the end it was not a fairy tale, but it taught me a loads of thing :)
i learn about compromise, commitment, understanding, patience and incredibly loads of thing in such a short time.

me and my ex were totally different in everything. i want a cinderella-like relationship, and he's (later on found out to be) as cold as an iceberg. i am an attention seeker + attention giver while he loves to spend his time alone, well a bit self centered sometimes. we have opposite personality, the old-fashioned cancer against the liberty loving aquarius. but we share (i believe up to now) one simple yet sweet sincere love.

he was the cute looking teddy bear guy, my band's friend introduced to me at Gedung Indonesia Menggugat Event. a good photographer and videographer with charming tone color, he really got the talent. a cute guy with a red shirt that shyly ask to take my picture at Kick Fest 2011. a cute guy that pretended to know about Hepatitis Viruses, PCR plus claiming that he love life science when he approach me.

the first month was easy and loving. but then.. it was not as easy as i thought. he began to give me less and less and less attention. being very ignorant and childish and stubborn. I first react as stubborn and bloody-minded as his attitude, i went mad, angry, and super emotional towards him. i scolded him and forbid him to do things that i dislike. i disturbed him by keep bbm/ym/texting him when he work or hang out until midnight with his friend.

but i really wanted the things to work well, to last. i changed my attitude totally. i became more understanding and more cautious. i seek for attention less, i tried to be more independent, stop being a crybaby and i let him to do anything he want. we had a quite difficult time but still loving.

and i went to a trip to Europe and things became irregular. i could see how he has lost the passion of loving me and missing me. i tried harder to salvage the sinking ship but he does nothing. and the entire last week, i was being emotional again, well, i was really desperate. but then finally we talked and it end.


a time apart is what we need right now.
Love is still there but the passion is currently missing.
i really appreciate him to be open and also to accept the fact that he did fatal mistakes to this relationship. i don't think many boy would do that due to their 'pride'
now, i don't have to have too much tiring thoughts about his everyday's ignorance like : 'kenapa ga bbm ya?' 'kenapa ya kok ngetweet tapi bbm aku ga dibalas?' 'kemana dia, kok aku ga dikabarin?' 'oh God, masih sayang ga ya ini orang sama aku kok lepas tangan sekali?'
and he's good to finally release me from that fatiguing thoughts by letting me free.

now i'm trying to understand that right now he need a time alone to develop himself to be a better man. at least, he has to be able to stand on his own feet before trying to be a man for his loved woman right?
i am a bit relieved that one big burden has been lifted up from my shoulder.

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one thing i believe, that our love was sincere.
aparts from all of the differences, we've survived and we spent some happy time. and i learn about commitment from him. there were times when i am really tired of him, but then i know the relationship and the love for him is more important. so i changed my attitude and try to salvage it.
you can't expect those romantic love will last forever right? i guess, the time when i try to understand and fight more instead of being childish and ignorant is the time when i learn a sincere love, a more mature form of love :)


and i believe that always loving someone else sincere will bring you eventually to a sincere love in the end :) i don't know who will be there in the end, it might be him, it might be other guy. it's up to You, dear Allah :)
but you're always around i know. loving and giving affection not in a romantic way.


Dear Andi Syarif, for now, we may not walk together holding hands.
but we're walking together side by side.
if God permits maybe someday in the future you will again gently take my hand & never let it go!
and i'm asking you to sing this lyric out loud, i guess this part is our favorite!

'Berjalanlah bersamaku, berjalanlah bersamaku!'


with love


Afifa Ayu Koesoema, Marmut <3

2011♥

oh hey hello!
happy new year all~

actually i'm not good in writing new year's resolutions but it's kinda fun to write it, in my usual simple way. half for fun half for real :p
i mean, how can you garantee that person having a 'cool-super ambitious' new year's resolution will be able to fulfill it all?

okay, here's my so called resolution!

ACADEMIC
- having a good understanding of my major to be a great microbiologist (medical and food) :)
- having a good GPA (> 3,5, entering deanlist, yum yum!)
- somehow getting a scholarship for summer school somewhere this summer (let's try to find it! Rijksuniversiteit Nederland, i want to go there so much!)
- read more scientific journals about microbiology! (cmon cmon!)
- being able to start some kind of simple research on microbiology and start to create paper + submitting it somewhere (but i don't know how, help me :p)

MUSIC FOR SELF
- practice violin, singing, piano, and everything harder.
- learn music theory and music history more.
- learn improvisation wholeheartedly
- creating a music blog of my own, You Tube Channel + myspace.
- having a strict violin practice, no tolerance.
- following ABRSM theory exam grade 5 + practical exam, grade 6 or 7?
- learn to play flute or baby alto <3
- create more songs, be more creative, develop my own style :) and don't forget to record it and follow competitions!
- start teaching violin! :)

ANGSA DAN SERIGALA
- commit more commit more! and arrange more things, not only for the string section :)
- record the violin and string section part in our debut album excellently!
- hopefully this will be our year! bunch of performances, successful album, tours outside bandung, and maybe abroad? AMIIIN AMIIN AMIIN.


KLABKLASSIK STRING TRIO
- working more in various kind of events, and get more money hahahaa :D
- make a real portfolio and distributing it :)
- learn many kind of songs, enrichment in song banks and no more 'saying no to requests' at weddings XD

OTHER MUSIC PROJECTS
- being both open minded and also selective in filtering jobs, remember that i can't do it all but i still need loads of experiences :)

COOKING
- learn to cook more more recipe other than western and japanese :)
- being a pastry princess like Whitney Miller (haha, dreaming!) :D
- making my pastry business (cupcakes, cakes and all) serious and having my own little brand plus online store.
- making a proper cooking blog.

LOVE
- come what may, and that's all <3

SELF DEVELOPMENT
- try to be more grateful and get rid of my sh*tty inferiority syndrome! :)
- love myself more :3
- tweet less about unimportant things, bismillah! :p

whoa, this list is going so long, but well i love to write. And hopefully many of this so called resolutions will be fulfilled this year, amin :)


Loads of love,

Afifa Ayu

helloo!

wow, i haven't written anything in this blog for a long time, long long time.

well, hello! how are you all?

so, where have i been?
currently i'm playing double role as a real microbiology student and a part time musician while leaving my comfort zone away and finding a new comfort zone.



the picture was taken by my fellow microbiologist, robby ganesha, thank you robby!


i'm loving my role as a real microbiology student although it's driving me crazy and consume almost my entire brain to study biophysics, organic chemistry and analytical chemistry. and consume my time to be at the laboratory for hours and doing gazillions tasks (journal, experiment report, etc.) every weekend. plus i'm taking extra subject(my ambition to follow fast track program). but i'm loving it so much. i really think that this microbiology really suits me :) and just pray for me that i can be a good food/medical microbiologist! :)



pictures are taken from here, thank you agung! :)


i really love my role as a part time musician too. although it really took almost my whole spare time. i mean, if i'm not in the laboratory or campus then you have 90% chance to catch me at some random studio, practicing; at music school, studying music; at random gig, performing; or at random wedding or acoustic performance, working. it's tiring, although it doesn't consume brain as much as my study but i consume my energy a loads to perform well. not forget to mention about : late night performances which leave me sleepy at morning classes, performances outside town that will take my entire day and force me to bring my task thus doing it while waiting or even on road,
but i'm happy with this, with my angsa dan serigala, voice of june, klabklassik string trio, and some band that use me as an additional.

because as i have mentioned before, i'm leaving my comfort zone, really really leaving it to open my heart for a new comfort zone. and it doesn't feel nice and warm and secure. it's harsh, it's not safe, and it's still a probability to have a new comfort zone. meaning right now, i'm TRULY INDEPENDENT and as a person being independent really tortures me. and i'm using my double role to push away my thoughts from loneliness, inferiority syndromes, and stuffs.
:p

i have to be tough and magical, cause that's the way 'he' always see me :)

and who knows what will happen in the future? (quoting someone)

i'll talk to you later, now i have to catch up for my group presentation's experiment at 10 am. just wish me luck! and wish me luck for this weekend! (God please just give the best for me)



with loads of love
afifa ayu ♥

hello all :D

Wow, i haven't updated my blog for such a loong time :) i'm trying to be more productive right now :) a loads of writing will enhance your english.
(lately i'm feeling like my english is rather dull)

and well how are you? i'm feeling quite fine nowadays! :D let me give you updates!

-STUDY-
finally i'm a real university student right now! majoring Microbiology :) i'm quite happy with this major, i like microbiology so much. Microbes is so unique, although they are very very small their role is so big in our everyday life. And every life process is connected with microbes. I really think that this major is suitable for me, besides it pursue my interest. It is also a branch of knowledge that's emerging and evolving very fast right now!
and well, since my GPA (and everyone's GPA in Microbiology) fulfills the requirements for fast-track program, i'm quite sure that i will apply for this fasttrack program. 5 years to take our bachelor and master degree. i hope that i can cope with everything, but i guess it will be allright. You just need extra hard work! besides, getting bachelor+master in a short time will let me take another master degree on music, somewhere else abroad, maybe?
well just pray for me!

-ANGSA dan SERIGALA-
awawa congratulations for my lovely band, angsa dan serigala!


we play at TVRI! what a wonderful picture :)

and our song 'Bersamaku' won Indonesian Cutting Edge Music Award as one of the Best Newcomer (there were 8 other bands who win this category)


kak aji and kak mega holding the trophy

It was quite surprising, i mean, on the last week of the voting our position was not that good and stuffs (but in fact, it wasn't depend only on the voting, they have juries and stuffs to choose the winners)
We are all very grateful for this, something that we.. really didn't expect to happen. Thanks God :)
After that we had one page full review of us in Media Indonesia.


hmhm, on Media Indonesia :)



one of our performance on ABSTRAK V was being reviewed on Belia PR :)


and we've just had an interview plus photo session with Pikiran Rakyat. again, thanks dear God :)

what are we trying to do now is like regenerating the band.
creating new arrangement of songs, new concepts, new compositions, and even choreography! we're also still working on our recording for our EP and
it's a long way for us to have an EP for our own, the biggest thing that hinders us is the budget. but we will strive for it! having an EP is like having an identity for a band. it doesn't mean that if you already have EP or album, it will guaranteed your band's successfulness. But at least, having EP or album is like having a very good tools to spread your music to the media, to the people all around Indonesia. People can access it easily from everywhere, our music can be publicated more easily with the presence of EP or album.
having EP or album also means video clip, which means more and more publication :)
well just pray for us! not forget to mention, with new goals to be achieved i'm trying to contribute more and more to this band :) they are just like second family for me! :)
and full loyalty will surely lead to a better band!

-VOICE of JUNE-
i'm getting along quite well. now i can blend with them, not only from the things that they talk about, but also to their daily outfits and life style.


quite girlband-ish right? (the picture was taken on a radio interview)


and cheers :D


see? you cannot see that i'm still a member of a serious folk rock band right?

btw, the picture was taken on 'Top 15 Live Audition of L.A. Lights Indiefest' :) we played our song 'Bertepuk Sebelah Tangan' :) our performance was quite great. but unluckily we didn't pass to the next stage, but i think that's quite great to be Top 15 from Bandung.
this achievement lead us to new projects to establish ourself, and again please just pray for us :)

-VIOLIN-
improvement needed.
i'm trying to focus on myself, to develop myself. let's not think about other shining stars out there.
right now i'm learning musical modes, twelve keys, pentatonic, diminished keys, major keys, minor keys, augmented keys-well, PROPER IMPROVISATION. and also music theory, and etudes and all those quite sickening stuffs.
pray for me.
others can be flashy, but i have my own style of playing violin. i just need to develop it :)

-ORCHESTRA-
lately i've been playing orchestra again, with ITB Student Orchestra. i'm very happy :) hope they will let me play with them more.


one project was playing at the artepolis.



one project was playing for ITB International Choir Competition's Opening. i accidentally sat on a golden chair :)


OTHER MUSIC PROJECT
during the holiday, i help my friends band, one as a violinist one as a... cellist..


helping baby eat crackers :)


and helping pink pony club :)


-KLABKLASSIK-
after a quite long absence, i'm back in business. things were really hectic back there but now let's contribute fully to my wonderful klabklassik. trying to write articles for the blog, trying to help for the Classical Guitar Fiesta 2010 publication, trying to do some composition for the Klab, and trying to finish the Klabklassik's Academy final task.

-CULINARY-
well i love cooking, and i've just had my first experience for selling my own food. it was cupcake, macaroni schotel and lemonade (on my bigger sister comic launching Satu Atap)


tid bid :)


i really want to be able to cook many recipes! from cake, dessert, indonesian food, japanese food, western food, etc.
and i really like if my own cooking is being liked my many other person. i really feel the enjoyment. i want to open a business in culinary (people always need foods, anyway) and i also want to be a cupcake artist!

-OWN SELF DEVELOPMENT related to CAMPUS LIFE and ANOTHER MAINSTREAM THINGY-
harmony? i guess that's what i really want to achieve right now. as you have known, i am still a bit anti social, but i really want to change, change a bit. i don't want to be a super sociable girl, that spend most of her time in organization etc.etc. i really can't (because i have loads of other responsibilities out there)
and if i'm changing to be a super sociable girl then i will change myself. i still want to be myself.

and back to harmony, i cannot be extremely anti social. right now i'm trying to participate a bit there, not much, but still having some existence. my major is still music and organizations out there, this kind of inner campus organization will be like a 'minor' for me. but let's just try to participate, following meetings, filling out open reqruiment form, and finishing the matriculation program for PPN. i'm not aiming for a big goal (like being kadiv or something else, something special, something great and reflecting great ability of leadership blah blah).

besides, everyone have different kind of contribution to 'that' organization, depending to our own ability. i can play music, so i don't bother to play in any of their events or do something related to it.

and i guess you all can see that i'm trying hard to contribute and participate. i'm just not a very sociable person, but i try to follow it although it's sometimes killing me.
how wonderful it will be if i can still help without reducing the values inside myself, and we'll be living in harmony, appreciating each other.

i'm also planning to take an italian language course, i really want to find some short course or summer school about music in italy. and it will help a lot if you can speak and understand italian a bit :p

and i'm trying to write more, to practice my english and critical thinking.

and nooo more inferiority syndrome, let's love myself!


and this post is getting a bit too long, i guess i should stop.
talk to you later :)


with love, afifa ayu♥

what road to choose :)

hey hello all!
okay loads of things have happened recently from a big changes until a small changes.

first of all #ACADEMIC THINGY
ok finally i have my GPA with me. it's satisfying and i really hope that i can enter microbiology with this GPA. and also fulfill my dream of being in SITH's dean list. amen. however, my destiny (whether i'll be a microbiology or a biology student) will be announced at 17th of june. please pray for me that i'll get microbiology as my major :)

second of all #PPN THINGY
well at least the first stage has finished~

third of all #LOVE THINGY
ok right now i'm focusing my love to a boy :p this decision includes really leaving my ex haha (i should have done that really long long time ago)
this boy to me is really superb. for the time being, i will let the things flow while showing that i DO care to you, boy :)


fourth of all #THE IMPACT OF LOVE THINGY
well, i feel really great and really sad at the same time. i am glad because finally i can release myself, learn to be independent. besides i can be closer to my family and best friends. i really agree that my ex has successfully made himself as the center of my world, sometimes it is just making me rather blind and insensitive to other people.
but in the other way, sometimes i just feel empty and lonely.
and since my new dream boy is only a crush, what can i expect? a 24 hours care? nah-ah, i cannot demand for that.

but i'm sure i can manage the things. i have to manage the things. this is the real moment for me to MOVE FORWARD, to be stronger and more independent!


fifth of all #MUSIC THINGY
it's still very fun and enjoyable as usual. i don't say that i am not serious. i am serious. but this music things appear in my life because it can decrease my stress for everyday's life :)
my short time goal is to be able to use music mode for improvisation (i'll explain why later in the following post) and to teach violin :)


but for overall my mood is quite good! and positive!
holiday has came. and i really wanna have fun! playing music, performing, cooking, planning my study, and having some great holiday!

happy holiday all! :)

colorful life :)

well hello all! :)

recently something very big has happened to my life. and all of sudden, my life has changed within few days. really change. i really think that i don't have to mention what's changing if you are my best friend then you will know what's really CHANGING.

and now i'm quite happy. thank you ya Allah :)
i'm gonna walk carefully now while still having loads of curiosity about "this"

i just hope that this time everything will be incredible and it the fun will last :)
and now. let's have fun miaw miaw!!
let's paint it in a very colorful way!

:3


and and ok a bit update.

i got AB and AB for chemistry and physics. i'm really grateful. i mean, i really flunk physics and i got a bad chemistry score for the first mid test. but it ends up with total score 71, and 72 is A. i really hope that miracle will happen and my chemistry score will be an A :P

my band's

angsa dan serigala

is playing today and tomorrow. today is at blitz megaplex for a charity event at 9 pm. tomorrow is SMAN 5 Firetory Expo, and the L.O will be my old plurk friends :)
please kindly drop by and say hello hahaha :D

and my other band, voice of june will play in jatinangor this sunday. oh, i never been to jatinangor before. i hope it'll be fun :p

i'm gonna have Program Perkenalan Nymphaea next week. pray for me.

i'm gonna bake cake today. ahem.

and i'm quite happy and feeling lovely. hahaha. thanks to everyone :)


gotta go now, i'll give more update later on! cheers!


Liebe, Afifa Ayu♥

Indonesian Cutting Edge Music Award 2010 =)

ok, a little update.
i'm doing my final exams right now. pray for me. and also so many final project! calculus, physics, and SAS and still have to fix my running test score :P

so i don't have much time.

btw, my band angsa dan serigala is one of the nomination of INDONESIAN CUTTING EDGE MUSIC AWARD 2010 in the category of THE BEST NEWCOMER! =)

so, i really appreciate if you vote for my band.
here's the step :

1. go here , the official website of ICEMA 2010.

2.click the best new comer tab.




3.choose 'vote for best new comer'




4.choose ' ANGSA DAN SERIGALA - bersamaku ' don't forget to fill the form and then check your email and verify your vote! :)




thank you very much all :) your vote will really really help us! :)

and for upcoming show, tomorrow, tuesday 10th of May we will have a show at UNPAR Bandung in International Relation Expo-Youthphoria at 5 pm (right after my Sistem Alam Semesta final test, gotta get out of the class fast LOL)



for more information, just go here

and gotta go now! still have 7 Chapters for Sistem Alam Semesta :)


Love, Fifa♥

a quick study updates ^^

wow hello! :)

i just feel like writing a quick update about my study ^^
okay, i've finished all of my first midterm. i got 51 (out of 54) in calculus. 55 (out of 100) in chemistry, 53 (out of 100) in physics, and 89 (out of 100) in biology.

i have two scores that actually a bit disappoint me, and make me feel really really inferior. but i know just being disappointed all the time will not increase my score.
i have to study more, be more focus, ignore the valedictorian's score, be postive, be grateful, and also pray to Allah.
that i would have a score that suits my sacrifice.
i mean if i study hard, God, please increase my score.
and if i am lazy, i don't mind to have bad scores, it's just the consequences.



and i'm still like usual, still in my old hobbies of writing my notes with colourful markers. still feel retarded in the class, and have to catch up at home real hard.
and still in my own way of being study oriented : class home class studio home class soundcheck class vocal course class violin course class stage class home.
(this is a bit strange form of study oriented, but whatever. this is my life anyway :3)


well gotta study harder for chem and physics. strangely i wanna proof that being a member of an indie band, and using blackberry as your phone will not make you flunk and your grade plummet, LOL. and also i wanna beat someone and some cliques in my class hahaha. ok i know that those are such a funny, immature, and ridiculous study motivation, but i don't care :D as long as i have a motivation and it will not harm anyone, i think that's pretty fine to me.



and now here comes the second midterm.

next week is calculus and i really hope that i can study calculus from this week.




because most of the subject will involve 3D orientation (vectors and parametric curve). and my brain is definitely not made for 3D :D for function with two or more variables and also matrices i'm doing quite okay. just.. pray for me.

two weeks from now is physics.



i'm doing quite with the equations of magnetic and induction but not with the RIGHT HAND RULE. ok, God give me a miracle please. i will study really hard!


and chemistry? also have to study real hard. i won't flunk this time, i hope.




so gotta study hard, real hard.

:)


ok, maybe that's all for my quick update, i gotta go for my chemistry last experiment! (yippie) see you later!



Liebe♥

hey-hello!

well well, another post! a quick update post, i'll not post something too philosophical or brainy here LOL. i guess i'll post in on the weekend :3

since my last post my life has changed a bit. it still do looks similar but i know now it's a bit different :3
and right know i really need a little break, so i will write in this blog.

OK, ONE, now i'm the additional keyboardist of a japan power pop band named Voice of June (okay this sounds a bit crazy and so-not-me)the girls there are super cute, super white, super thin, and also a marvelous dancers. but i think i'll have my own style haha ( i spent too much time with a baroque pop-folk rock band though, you can't blame me to have a 'serious' looking LOL.

ok let's compare this :


and this :


haha, maybe i'm in a wrong place xp


TWO, i lost my handphone and my uncle bought me an onyx blackberry. this is like a dream, really. my uncle said it was for my GPA last semester. hope that i can maintain it.


THREE, kak angkuy is not in angsa dan serigala anymore :( he has to be focus on bottlesmoker, since they gonna have a tour to Philipphine and of course much much more great and large project. kak ashaf also has quit, he has a new job as a translator, good for him. kak yulius (he is the bottlesmoker's manager) has replaced him. and now kak aji plays guitar and also, glockenspiel. and we have a new guitarist, kak baruna.
wow, a lot of things have happened in my band. but we're still moving on rapidly, and currently searching for a recording label.



FOUR my best friend HILDA MARDIANA has gone to japan. we (me, hilda, irly, helen, uti, and febe) held the farewell party at my home. we cooked sukiyaki and stuffs. for the farewell we made a CD consist of 5 songs for hilda, and also a scrap book. and i miss her so, nice to know that she's having a good time there.


our party :3




wow, our sukiyaki!


but fyi, i fell in her farewell party. i really fell. i got sprain, bruises, etc. for 2 weeks i couldn't walk properly, and i wore elastic bandage for my sprain legs. it really hurts me, a lot :p but now i'm a bit better. but still, i cannot do the running test today. it's still hard for me to maintain balance in my little feet :3



FIVE i have to say goodbye to his royal highness Arthur. you're just not suitable for me :) go live your sociable life, i'll not interfere you :)


SIXTH i read perahu kertas by dee. and it gives me a HOPE. for a true love <3



SEVENTH my violin teacher offers me to play with him (with d'cinnamon) and also offers me to teach violin. that's quite good, i mean with teaching i have to ensure that i have enough skill to be delivered to my future pupil, thus i HA to practice hard.



EIGHT i cut my hair. i want to look like amelie poulain. my mom said i look younger, and my friends opinions vary. from cute, sweet, fairy-ish until kobo chan-ish (ok, is kobo chan a girl or a boy?i'm not pretty sure~)


amelie!



and me!


NINTH i'll learn to be more grateful for what i've earned :)and i'll study harder than before, i'll practice violin harder than before, i'll work harder than before, and also i'll learn to be more positive :)thank you helen, irly, uti, and the other for your support! :3


and TENTH a lot of ups and downs. but you'll still there. thank you dear KEE! <3


and i gotta go now. kreutzer and bach has already called me :3


love, fifa♥

first daay!

well, first day back to itb :)

today i have free time from 10am until 4pm, so i go back home.
fortunately, itb didn't change my classmates. so i'll still stick together with my bests.
but they have changed the lecturer. i got new physics and chem lecturer, and i thought that they teach better and clearer. i gotta study hard to maintain my scores :)

^^
now 2.42 pm, almost the time for P.E. and i'm really not in the mood to do P.E.
after P.E i'll have angsa dan serigala's practice at smooth. really good, i really need to spend a lot of time with other peope. because when i'm alone, every bad memories, worries, and miseries will strike me, hard. LOL

i've just practiced violin in my brand new room. LOL i'm exaggerating i'm just redecorating and rearranging things. but now i have the space for everything. my study, a big cupboard for my music books and university books and other books, another cupboard for stockings, bags and other things, a place to put keyboard, violin, standpart, and all :p


oh, and in this semester i will :
-write more frequently in this blog (whether it's just a quick update, or something more useful like recipe, music or thoguhts) rather than gazing on
A's facebook repeatedly and i'd feel longing and miserable.
B's facebook repeatedly and i'd feel too hopeful and too pessimistic.
C's facebook repeatedly and i'd feel jealous or i'll loathe C more and more.

practice violin regularly really practing, doing etudes and classical songs. and improve hearing too.

study music theoryso that i'll be prepared for the next ABRSM theory :P thanks to mas becke for all of the books and practice books.

repeat each lesson better GPA will soon come, i believe :P

practice keyboard. LOL. welcoming myself as a keyboardist.

practice singing
being pessimistic and optimistic in a adequate value

learn to cook more foods ^^

arthur-ing all day (OK, this is getting so cheesy LOL)

pray and pray and pray :)



oh gotta go now. it's 3pm! keep reading my blog everyone. pray for my first P.E. today!^^

cheers!♥

recording session indonesiaku ^^

i have just recorded my new song for indonesian song festival (ISF)the song name is indonesiaku.
this competition is held by indonesian government. and the winner's song would be registered to ASEAN song festival.

and i was just curious and registering myself.
i did not expect anything from this competition rather than experience. since this competition is open for everyone, i mean, a professional music player can also register.

the recording team was
me as violinist, vocalist, and glockenspiel player LOL.
mas hendy as guitarist and maracas player :)
mas medi as cellist.
and ilham as second violinist.
and also, mbak azisa as manager LOL.
mas edu as operator.

we did the recording on last tuesday, on aru of course :D
and the result was quite well. and i hope that i would get the best result for this competition :D
later on i'll post the song :)


here take a look of some crazy photographs (unfortunately not that good, because this pictures were taken only by mobile phone)


go maracas!


the manager ^^


hungry musician :p


mas edu, the cool operator ^^


ilham, doing his homework during the session LOL


ok, this brand new world is quite fine with me, cheers♥

;)

HELL-O!

finally, after -hmm- let me count it.. 3 months without a blogspot, finally i can write again in this blog :)

just an quick update for this post.
and my life has completely changed. really really change. hopefully towards betterment.
and i'm having a quite long holiday until late january or maybe early february.
and i have so many plans for this holiday ^^

and.
well i'm quite happy now. with my university, solitary, love, violin, and everything.

let's see the new day ^^

pray for me!

haha. here we go again. welcome to my hectic life :D

okay.
next week i will have physics quiz. and maybe tons of homework and i need extra concentration in class to perform well.

and i have just found a competition of online video music contest, named battle of the songs with deadline of 2 october 2009. and you know what? i will follow that :p

ok, crazy.
well at first, mom saw it at telkomsel.com and she told me to follow it (of course she did :D)

i read the announcement carefully.
i was very positive to follow. i have the song, i only have to record it, have it edited, and zoom, send it to jakarta.

but then.
they need not only the music but also video clip of the song!!

at first i thought it would be impossible. i was like rrrrr -i cannot make a video clip, and who will make it for me?- and rrrr -making video clip? who would be the model? what would the scenes all about?

but well, God showed me the way :)
mas ammy and mas zaki helped me and giving me some basic clue about how to make a video clip and who can make it for you.
kak angkuy also suggested his friend, isha, the one who made bottlesmoker's videoclip.

and after loads of discussion.

with helped of kak isha i would make a video clip of one of my song.

i would record the music on tuesday.
and i would make the video clip on thursday. gotta skip classes though, but well, it might be my one and only attempt to feel how it's like to ditch the class in ITB first year :p hope that later on i would not be sick so my absent would still be 99.99% LOL

and hopefully, on friday morning. zoom it would be delivered to jakarta. amen.


:D

well, very thrilling.
:D

memang gak rame ikut lomba kalo gak mepet deadline HAHAHA

LOL :)

pray for me please :)

*for those who want to follow my "courage" to follow this competition please just go here for details :)

UPDATE!

ah, finally, holiday and I can write again =)
my new life as a university student, well, has made me a bit (A BIT?) occupied. Just look at my blog and facebook’s note, I really didn’t write any update for 1 month.


ok, let me tell you about my first month. My faculty, Sekolah Ilmu Teknologi Hayati is quite nice. I think that my faculty has the coolest acronym compared to other faculties. SITH from star wars. LOL. And also the blue building of SITH (used to be called labtek biru) is really cool. With all of the glass and metal material sometimes I feel like I am in an aerial base. I also love the tiles that form a double helix and also the all glass wall above it that form a giant mirror (I love to see my reflection there and wave LOL) and, well, almost forget to mention about the kebab and ice cream stall-though i haven't tried that, but it has been known to be utterly nice- and also equipped with green house and botanical garden, i think my faculty is kinda cool :)

my new friends are also very nice, diverse, and well, unique. ITB is a real melting pot, you have people from different region, all over Indonesia; varying in culture, habit, and accent. i will never get bored to just sit down in class and just looking at my surroundings. my friends are always very colorful. and well, right now, i've already had some close friends, although i'd rather not considered myself as a super social creature, but i do think that i made a quite good social interaction. and i love my new close friends; helen, irly, hilda, uti, febe; heart you all >3 oh, the guys here in SITH are also very nice. and, ehm, thanks to my small body, friends and also lecturer remember me from that. i know that being small is not always pleasant but sometimes it IS your uniqueness :)

and well, my progress on the academic. i have a good calculus and biology concept teacher. although i wasn't doing good in my first and second quiz of calculus, but i think that i'm doing calculus quite okay and i just have to do more practice. i have a sole chemistry and physics teacher arrgh. but i'm trying to be very objective and study hard at home, because i don't really understand their explanation. my physics teacher is too smart and my chemistry teacher is just a bit not well structured in teaching. the other subjects are going quite well and i think that i should not be worry. the conclusion is that i have to work extra hard, concentrate really hard at class, and practice harder at home. a good GPA is my goal and i have to study well to achieve that :)

and right now, i'm thinking of selecting biology as my major and ecology as my sub major. although microbiology with its molecular biology, genetics, and biotechnology seems to be very promising for a bright future but if everyone does want to enter microbiology then 5 years or 7 years from now on the world of microbiology will have been fully occupied and it will hard to be an excellent person when you have so many people concentrated there.
and why ecology? i think that ecology will always be an actual issues. environment is more damaged by the day and you will have to do something to make it better. someone mastering in this world will always be needed. and i think that this sub major allows us to make more interaction with people and nature. rather than spending a day in front of microscope and observing bacteria :D

ok let's move on to the extracurricular activities. i register to two units. ITB Student Orchestra, and Student English Forum. both ISO and SEF has evolved. ok, they're bigger and well developed now. and it's very good for them to have a loads of activity to welcome their new members and actually eliminate their new members by their so called loyalty to the unit. but unfortunately i just cannot divide my activities outside with my activities inside ITB. i'm trying to cope hard in ISO, well i kinda make it, following the interview, show off, i skipped some meeting and gatherings and i haven't collected iso black book. now they make us to make mini concert, hope that i can participate there. and SEF, i think that my absent to 3 meetings due to many things will not make me a member. maybe it's time for me to be really focus on music.
i think that i also have evolved. i have some regular things to do outside.

klabklassik is important to me, now that i feels a great sense of belonging. rgb concert is coming and i want to be a part of it not only as a player, i want to feel more of organizational aspect in klabklassik and learn to deal with society.
angsa dan serigala is another thing that has been a second family for me. the band has developed right now and i feel more and more comfortable. we have many dreams and upcoming projects. album is maybe the biggest goal right now. making an album requires a great concentration, practice and lot of time together. btw, don't forget to download our new single, bersamaku here and request it on the radio :)

klabklassik string trio oh how i love this trio. although we failed to play together as a team in Hilton bandung but i'm certain that job will still come to us. upcoming weddings, events, our project with kang pidi baiq, our plan to have a regular practice, and even our long term plan to make our own songs and recital (which seems so far away but who knows?) this thing really keep me busy and happy, i would never have a gut to sing in weddings and stuffs if mas syarif didn't push me. and i really want to make this trio established :)

my own violin study improving my violin playing is very important. i have to learn to be unique. my violin teacher think that i have enough basic of classical and now it's the time to develop my musicality and broaden my musical horizon. right now i'm learning improvisation technique (with my violin teacher's secret technique) beside improvisation technique i also want to learn more musical genre. i also want to learn about the sounding of the violin, since now i know very few about amplification and effects. i want to be able to make my violin TALK and INTERACT with people, not only making good sound and songs. i want my violin to be alive, i don't want to put a mindset that violin is only a musical instrument. my violin has to be a tool of communication and interaction that can cross different languages and cultures. violin has to be my way to express my thoughts.

and my own ambition i'm gonna make my name established someday. i have to practice violin and singing and composition real hard. i have to be productive in making songs, although it's really really hard. someday, i want to have an album of myself, playing my own songs with my family and friends involved. maybe for the mean time, my hope is to make a guitar song for mas syarif's recital and a recital of the trio in the following year.


along with all of the stuffs i've mentioned above, i think that right now it's the time to be focus. to be focus on music and university, getting good GPA and reaching my dream to be a violinist :)
oh, so many ambition and things to do.
gotta concentrate and work real hard! :)
pray for me :D

and hope i'll post more good updates in the next update post! :)

♥missbunnybiola